Cloud Nine With an Evil Smile

I performed in a kick-@$$, balls to the wall, epic performance music video this weekend with Super Geek League! I’m so thankful that I got to be part of it (seriously SGL and all of the awesome performers and musicians I rocked with, thank you)! While hanging out behind stage, I managed to type out a quick post for the C+D website:

In the Green Room

Sitting here, getting ready to perform in a music video, I find myself excited. It’s an interesting thing, finding out that the same people that you hang out with on a day to day basis, are the professionals.

Capacity and Desire, Super Geek LeagueI’m rocking red body paint, highlighted with dark accents for muscle tone. My face paint is a dark, toothy grin. I had a friend just complement me and say that I looked like something out of Wildchild World (who I absolutely idolize ). This is cloud nine with an evil smile!

We’re pushing to be big. The next big production, the next big event, the next big ‘WOW’ factor. It’s going to look and feel new.

Super Geek League and Capacity and DesireI have the ‘I’m here’ feeling. I’m finally making it. All of those things that I always dreamed of doing with my performance, I’m doing. It feels amazing. Chasing my dream while having a day job is working. The Business Degree is paying off. The constant body work and discipline is worth it.

How wonderful! I’m on the road to becoming the thing that I wanted to be as a kid. I can’t wait to see where I’ll be in a year.

Progress

Post epic weekend, I’m still managing to push my day jobs to my limit. I am now working on multiple projects, including working with the Burning Man Project and Burners Without Borders (which I’ll be posting about next week).

I started learning how to code in Python (thanks to Learn Python the Hard Way and Codecademy.com) so I’ll be able to program all of the LED projects that I have coming my way.

I have two awesome books coming in the mail this week! One is on fashion and technology (electronics sewn into fashion), and the other is on FX makeup and design. I can’t wait to get my hands on them and learn new things! I’m hoping to design something new and crazy for NYE!

Next up for the performance life:

Bootie Seattle! I’m going to try and book something between now and then. Definitely will keep everyone updated.

Burning Man 2012 Fertility 2.0

The sights, the sounds, the smells, the people, the music, the sun, the night, the Man, the Temple, the art, and the Human Connection. Such wonderful beauty! Such inspirational creativity! All of this, summed up into two words: ‘Best Burn’… So far ;).

Burning Man 2012, Fertility 2.0 was one of the best experiences of my young life. Things went right this year.

First, I would like to thank and acknowledge all of the amazing new Burners that came out to the 2012 Burn. You all are amazing people. You all stepped up and created new art, new experiences, and reinforced the integrity of the Burner Culture (something that is constantly being questioned by veteran Burners). I am impressed. I’m also inspired.

The art out at this year’s Burn was epic, as always. Large roving structures caressed the Playa with sound systems to rival any club in the Default world. Burners danced into the night, only to be greeted with a communal cheer as the sun crested Black Rock City’s surrounding mountains. The Man’s interior was a honeycomb of human interaction and delight and the Temple was the most spiritual place on the planet, if but for a moment. Ah! Lessons in the Temporary.

We build the city and we Burn it down. It is our ritual. In many instances, it is our life. Poetry of the soul, and I can’t wait to do it all over again. Burning Man is the one place, the one thing, in this world that I can always get my hopes up for and NEVER be disappointed. What a strange thing we have created!

I will tell many of the stories of this Burn in the coming weeks. For now, I would like to share some helpful advice about life after the Burn.

Decompression.

1) Don’t quit your day job/don’t make any super-important life changing decisions for a minimum of 3 weeks. 2 months is better. We’re all wound up like tops when we come back from the Burn. It happens every year. Decompression parties/events happen for a reason. Take some time to gain perspective on life and the default world, then go from there.

2) Write it down. Everything that you are feeling and thinking in your head. Get it on paper and start sorting it out. You just lived in a place of 54K people for a week. You developed new relationships and reaffirmed old ones. Feelings of loneliness are natural. A friend put it really well when he said “I’ve never been so inspired, charged, pumped, and incredibly lonely and lost all at the same time.” This is natural. How do you exist in the default after so much sensory input? *Suggestion: Sleep over parties and nap time with friends… it helps.*

3) Bring it home. Don’t stop being inspired. That gigantic ship that you climbed, that dome you danced in, that art you Burned, all of it was created by someone. Don’t start thinking in limitations. This community is amazing. If you have an amazing idea, get on it and get your friends to help. If you don’t have friends, hit up your regional. If you don’t know your regional (Check the Burning Man site), email me. I’m always down to talk ideas and inspiration. Also, you don’t have to stop living the Burner culture off of the Playa. Bring the Human Connection home and start teaching others how to interact on a meaningful, day to day basis. You don’t have to have gone to Burning Man anymore to be a Burner.

4) Start planning. Next year is coming up fast. Get on it.

5) Never go to the Burn without some sort of goal. If you just ‘go’ to Burning Man ‘just because’, you may not have as good of a time. The Playa provides and Burner Magic is in the air.

I’ll be posting more later. For now, work on re-entry and be happy! The world is an amazing place!

Coming Back to Reality

Every now and then we need to take a breath, look around, and recognize reality. Take the time to analyze life in an objective moment. Triggering introspective immediacy can be beneficial to living life to its fullest.

I strive to reach my true capacity. Sometimes I stray from my goals. I lose what I want to the moment. This isn’t a bad thing. It just is. The cool thing is being able to recognize that I may have lost momentum. I have the ability to correct this. Analysis and reaction. It’s rad.

One of my favorite movies is Never Back Down. In addition to being a great MMA movie, the writer(s) for the movie took a moment to try and get a point across to us: It’s up to us to control the moment, control the outcome of a situation, and control our own lives. Everything we are is on ourselves. We are responsible for who and what we are.

If something doesn’t go right for me, it’s because I have done something wrong. I could have done things differently, and it’s on me to recognize that fact. That’s when the ability to analyze and change direction comes into play.

The major outlying factor that continuously derails, distracts or enhances this process is emotion. I am an emotional creature. I feel. I’m grateful for this (though at times it can be the bane of my existence). Experiencing emotions… (heh… how strange. I start to type about my emotions and I suddenly find myself at a loss for words.)

It has been a while since I’ve really allowed myself to feel emotions in my full capacity. I haven’t really taken the time to explore them. I guess we can say that it’s been a while since I’ve really paid attention to myself. I’ve concentrated on putting my energies into others. It’s something I know and I’m good at it.

Well then… Cool. I guess I’m going to have to start opening up and start allowing things to happen. I have no idea how I’ll be going about doing this… It should get interesting.